Satya a Sanskrit word for truth, a truth beneath everything, each layer of consciousness and thought. It goes beyond what you can feel. It as a knowing, wisdom, some long forgotten language. Like Sanskrit, its essence lies in vibration and frequency.

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Sometimes I tap into this knowing, this presence and it melts away my sorrow and pain. It restores peace and harmony. But so many times it also just slips through my fingers like sand. Something that's not sustainable here, and yet, in another way the only solid thing there ever is and ever was.

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Sometimes, I wish I could access it all and live the life I have always known in my heart to be possible. And yet, at times it seems like nothing moves, I am stuck, like cement in graveyard. Watching my life just getting wasted while I am running out of time. I have felt this way for the last few years and only recently there seems to be a movement, a flow coming back. Nothing I can predict, shape or make happen. It’s the natural flow of life which we are all part of. It moves the earth, life itself and us. Sometimes it’s so strong and other times it's like I don’t even remember it.

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Being human is such a blessing, such a gift and also such a struggle and such a challenge. So often I feel I just want to give up, be done with it. Life can break you into pieces, shake you to your core and make you truly believe that you will never be able to stand up again. But then something changes, maybe your perspective, maybe just because it’s a sunny day or you got lost in a cup of tea and you come back to life. You have strength again, there is still something to believe in. Not everything has been lost. You realize that with each storm there comes the sun, it’s the rhythm of life. You feel connected again and somehow you make it through your day, maybe even with a smile, some happy thoughts, a moment of peace and relaxation… The tears on your cheek are going to dry and you only feel the salty taste left on your skin, a reminder of the dark moments in your life. 

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“It’s okay” whispers a part of you… the "part" you always lose connection with, over and over. It’s this part of you, that has always been with you. The YOU that is eternal and knows you beyond any religion, believes, gurus and anyone else on earth.

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This is pretty much the summary of my story so far… No beginning and no end, just a journey through the universe, landed on planet earth.